31/12/2011

Blah blah blah, 2011 is ending. I used to hate 1st of jan during my primary n secondary school days, it always mean dat school will be starting the next day or so, but now that i am working, public holidays became really precious to me. Been interning for a month and 3 more weeks to go b4 my internship ends! Life's good, the awful part is i did not learn a single shit bout financial auditing, but who cares? atleast i have an idea of wat auditing is like and i guess it made it easier for me to make a choice.

Many things happened, and many things have changed. It was a tough year indeed. Another year spent without archiving any of my 2011 new year's resolution. As usual, i have ZERO piercing. lol! i promise! i will pierce in 2012! I swear!! lol! oh...havent got the iphone which i've been wanting since 2010. So gotta check all these things off of my 2011 resolution list lol! 

Not gonna have a long list of stuff, I just wanna have a better self stress management. Been under lots of pressure this year, all thanks to myself. And i've made those people who care for me really stressed out as well. So yeah! Less Stress! More Fun! Last year of uni! Whaddap! 

So 2012 Resolutions go like this

1. Less Stress
2. Less Procrastination
3. Iphone
4. Piercing
5. Awesome results and graduate without failing =D

Life's never fair

What's fair in life? Nothing
Since the day you were born,
Life's unfair,
being born into different families,
with different  parents and looks,
some adorable, some cry all day long.
Since when life is fair? Who told you life is fair?
It's always effort + money + luck = opportunity/success
Being born into a poor family, you already lost 2/3 of what you need to be successful.
Being born with silver spoon in mouth, all you need is just your own effort.
Whaddap life!
I appreciate whatever I am having now,
but at the same time,
I envy those who can get things effortlessly.
Everyone says money can't buy happiness,
but i guess money can cure sadness.
Seeing young kids and elderly people selling things from table to table really kill me.
I do wonder, where are their parents/children?
They say karma will bite you in the ass,
but I do assume these kids have not done anything wrong to deserve this.
So....Life's fucking unfair.
Kid A: Sitting happily playing with PSP
Kid B:Approaching Kid A's parents to buy the prawn crackers.
Oh dear....can we blend Kid A and B and distribute them equally?

I really wanna put everyone into a blender and shape everyone with equal wealth, happiness and knowledge. Yeah...i wish...

他和她的故事

没有童话般的结局
只有无奈, 惭愧和内疚
我没有预料到会有这一天
后悔......来不及

Heart failure...

I always tell myself, never regret of what you've done because everything will turn out to be fine. Yeap! no matter how bad things get, I never regret of whatever my choice is because eventually, I'll get what I want. Right now, I can't do the same. This could be one of my biggest mistake, I don't know how it will turn out to be in the future, but I am sure this is a very wrong decision. I am sorry. 

I suppose it's too late to do anything now. Damage is done and and everything is gone. Seriously, look what you've done. You suck and everything in your life sucks. All the good things are gone and what's left are all the mess that you'll have to clean up all by yourself. Maybe sometimes you just shouldn't follow your heart, heart is like the biggest conman. They'll fail you and you'll die LOL Whaddap life!! 

I miss us, i really really do :(

(Just a random thought of missing the peeps, they got ntg to do with my emo post =D)

I....

I wish that things will never change. 

I wish You were here. 

Nowadays ada emo! sigh! I wanna undo everything and let them stay the same. Maybe my life will be better off like that....


Really in need of an awesome getaway. But it's nearly impossible for the time being. This is why i hate job commitment. I used complain about being too young and can't wait to grow older and earn my own money. Now, I don't wanna grow up. Seriously, not anticipating it at all. Can I sleep and wake up at the age of 60, living a happy life with my children and grandchildren? lol It will be funny if i am reading this when I am 60. that would be cool! 

Btw, bought a MATTE nail polish from Etude House. Ada ons wei! damn cool! my first Matte finish nail polish! So gonna buy another few more bottles as they are all in my fav pastel colours.My nails only look pretty from far as it's harder to put on this nail polish as compared to the normal glossy one. Oh wells...atleast in something new and the colours are awesome!

Choo Choo Train

I have no idea what happened to me, as I grew older, I got weaker. I'd breakdown easily for small tiny matter and get worried about every single thing. Maybe this is part of growing up, or maybe I did not grow at all, that's why I am suffering like mad. Sigh. I am already 20 and definitely still not ready to grow up. The thought of working really kills me! Getting up early everyday to get stuck in the jam, work like a dog till 10 pm and go home feeling tired as hell and the routine goes on and on till you decide to quit your job or maybe retire. Gah!!!! Maybe it's still a bit early for me to worried about it since I don't even know if I can pass my 2nd sem. Lalalala...!

Btw, had klang BKT with ze bunch and had my fav 'seng gam bing' (lime shave ice). That's like the best thing ever in a hot sunny day. wells! life's good! Watched 'Immortal'  and it's like a total waste of time and stupid movie. Neh...not my type of movie. Really want to watch In Time and Tower Heist!!

look what you've done

Crazy month indeed.

2011 is almost gone, it's been a crazy year for me. Hectic like crap that i don't even know how i managed to pull through all this shit. Met lotsa new people and some of them became great friends of mine. At the same time, I noticed that there are way many inconsiderate, selfish, greedy, self-centred people in this world. Sometimes, I don't wanna stereotype, people might say things about them, but they failed to prove us wrong. I am so sorry to say, you did not earn respect from me and failed to stop me from stereotyping you because you asked for it. People may say, ' if you can't beat them, join them' but nah! this will never happen, being like one of them? I might as well just fking kill myself. To me it should be 'If you can't beat them, bear with them' lol!


Many things have changed and one funny decision changed everything. Life's funny, I've been living in my own world, doing the things that I'm comfortable with and have been really reluctant to change my lifestyle. Being labelled as lifeless and anti-social, i actually kinda miss the lifeless me, where staying at home and doing nothing can make me happy. I miss that lazy life. It's not like I am unhappy with whatever I am doing now, it's just a thought that will cross my mind when I stop and ask myself 'What have I gotten myself into?' Made lotsa impetuous decisions this year, I don't know if it's the right thing to do, lets just hope everything will turn out to be fine and I am just the usual 'think-too-much' me.

I could've chosen an easy life, let everything remain the same, get my degree and work like nobody's business but I don't know what happened to me, I just decided to go crazy and did something I'd never thought I would do and I actually like it. One random thing about me, it's always hard to get me started to do something, but once I've gotten into it, I will eventually enjoy it and refuse to stop. Funny huh?

I am always worried and paranoid about changes that I'll have to make. ' What if this?' 'What if that?'. Always afraid of the negative consequences that these changes will bring to me. Life is too short to be worried, but you will never stop worrying about stuff. It's contradicting but it's true. Being the one who's super reluctant to leave her comfort zone, I must say I should give myself a big applause for making all these decisions. Might not mean anything to the others, but it's like something that would require lotsa courage from me to do it. I may be regretting it now, but I am sure sometimes after this, I will be writing a blog post telling people how silly I was to worry bout all these things. (At least I hope I'll be able to do it)

Just watched the last episode of How I met Your Mother S6, yeah, i am few months late, if only I watched this earlier. I find this line particularly true.

'The future is scary, but you can't run back to the past because it's familiar.'

Yeah, future is fking scary because everything is uncertain. The more you avoid uncertainty, the less likely you will take risk and the more reluctant you will want to change, therefore, you will choose to live under a more rigid and standardised rules. In conclusion, a dull life. It's not supposed to be applied this way i suppos because it's supposed to be a theory to explain why people adopt different accounting practices haha, learned from accounting theory (probably one of the most useless units which i will fail).

Btw, exam is over, probably another 2 weeks for me to stone then i will have to start my internship. ada scary! yea! I am worried again! But well....everything will turn out for be fine like how it will always be? =D